I am just filled with frustration at the fact that I am home most of the time to be here for my children and so far away from my mom every time she needs me. I am here, doing nothing…she is there and needs to be taken care of. My sister cannot do everything even though she lives close by to her. She has to make a living and work. I am here, with oodles of time on my hands and CAN’T be there when she NEEDS me. It’s unfair, and cruel, and it makes me angry. I am sitting here a ball of nerves waiting for a phone call and that is about ALL I can do. Seriously?!!! I do not want to go through this AGAIN. I don’t. I DON’T.
Oh Lord, send me your spirit. Guide me with wisdom. Provide me with courage. Release my anger. Fill me with peace.