I wrote this about six months after my dad passed away and I keep it displayed in a memory box that I have of him. To my sweet friend from high school, Valentin–I hope this brings some comfort in knowing that it’s OK to move on and that even though it’s necessary to do so, it’s also necessary to feel the pain of your loss. God bless you.
Why do I feel so broken?
So empty everyday?
Why do I long so much for the days
Before you went away?
You left my heart with emptiness inside
And I long so much to fill it up.
Try and try as hard as I may,
Yet the void it won’t subside.
There are days that I’ll admit I’m feeling fine.
I have my kids, my home, my life,
To keep you off my mind.
Then I catch a glimpse of you—
It all starts up again,
And it’s like it happened yesterday,
But the tears are like a friend.
They help me to release the flood
Of sadness that I feel,
Each time I think of you
And it all becomes so real.
Every morning I awake,
It’s you that’s on my mind.
Through all the events of every day
You are not far behind.
And every night as I lay my
Head down to sleep,
You’re in my memory, and thoughts, and prayers—
in my aching heart left weak.
It’s true you had to leave even though
You did not want to go,
But the good Lord called you home to Him.
So I said goodbye reluctantly, with a pain-filled
Peace of mind, knowing someday I would see you again
And I’d no longer cry.
For you Dad, I miss you so much. You’re always with me wherever I go.